So I did get summoned back to work today. I have a new, much improved shift.
Unfortunately, who am I took over a bit of who I wanted to be. I had promised myself I would not be the over helpful guy who voluntarily did the dirty jobs, who stayed extra time to help, who skipped breaks and basically broke his back to make the job work.
Problem is...those things are who I am. So when an untoward accident occurred and one person got sent off for a UA, guess who was there to pick up the slack.
I think I have a giant "SUCKER" tattooed on my forehead.
At the same time, it is not me I am working extra hard for. It is not the company, either (any more). It is the people I work with.
I just cannot hang them out to dry.
But it is more than that.
I pick up the scraps of garbage, I take the extra time to do the little things right, I basically go out and act like super-employee because I just do not have it in me not to.
I am probably the only person on earth who would be disappointed in them self for being a superior worker.
I am so backwards.
We will get back to our normally scheduled mix of humor, pointlessness, and ranting tomorrow. Thanks for wading through this existential non-sense.
And just so the time is not completely wasted for you...
What I wanted to say - Dear Tootie, You are no longer suffering, and for that I am grateful. I've gone through so many feelings since you left this world Saturday. Grief, relief...
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