I do not like change. I have sometimes stuck myself in bad situations because I disliked change...like staying with a woman who repeatedly cheated on me. Common sense says that is good change...but I do not like change, so stayed with her.
I only left my first long-term job when they went under. I had chances to leave, just never wanted the change. I like security, the comfort of the familiar.
But sometimes change comes whether we like it or not. That time has come for me.
I have long had reason to leave where I am job-wise and never done anything about it. You probably know I am still bitter about the outright theft when they did not pay me commission that was promised because the new guy did not feel compelled to honor the agreement I had in place.
Which was the second worst thing they had done to me in a four month span.
But I stayed. Because I do not like change.
Which makes it all the more surprising that by the time you read this, I will have made a major, major change. It is not on the level of marrying the world's most awesome wife, which I was privileged to do 7/7/7. It is not on the level of having children, which I have not done yet. But to me, it is HUGE.
I accepted a job with a different company. For the first time ever I am deliberately leaving a job that, despite the issues, I like with people I like.
I do not know anybody else who would have even hesitated to snap this one up, but I have such a hard time with change I hesitated, crossed the "t"s, dotted the "i"s, talked to the wife, thought some more...
And I cannot express how excited I am about this job. It is a job I know I will be great at. they will love me. they will be amazed at my efficiency, ability to multitask. I will love doing the job.
Weird how much I feel change. But this is a good day...kind of like an early 40th birthday present to myself.
What I wanted to say - Dear Tootie, You are no longer suffering, and for that I am grateful. I've gone through so many feelings since you left this world Saturday. Grief, relief...
2 months ago